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guess who.
that is such a fake smile.
and i mean for both of us.
even though i was at my uncle’s house on the other side of my family,
and even though i love my family on my dad’s side,
i still have to fake a smile and act like everything is okay when you’re near.
you make me feel suffocated.
you make me feel like i’m no good, i never will be good enough.
you make me feel worthless.
during my home life, you have not done anything to make me feel like i have changed this year.
however, you made me stronger. i have no problem speaking my mind now, especially about you.
i have been able to express all the pain that you have caused me through my doc for soc project.
you have made me feel independent enough to be ready to leave the house and go off to college,
Rutgers, of course, as per your own forcing. you always try to get your way with everything, and you have taught me not to give in to you and give you want you want. you don’t deserve me. you never will deserve me and everything that i am, have tried to be, and have succeeded at. you don’t appreciate anything and nothing will ever ever ever be good enough to your standards, so i have given up completely with trying to make you happy.
i am my own person, and i don’t need you controlling my life anymore.
goodbye.
